Yeah well I'm suppose to be with Peter but that went over like a lead ballon. I got instructions off the net(on Monday) to where the place was and I asked my mom to check over them and make sure they were right and well she said she would. Any boy did she at like 6 pm on Saturady(today) well that's when she figured out that the place was an hour and half away and she refused to go out there. Damn I was so mad I almost broke the vase(no not thrown, when I get really upset glass shatters around me when they said I couldn't talk to Doud anymore I broke all the glasses in the kitchen) Then I had to call Peter's aunt's place and I couldn't find him so I had to tell the random lady that picked up the phone what had happened. God that's not proper but I'm kinda glad I didn't have to hear his voice that would have killed me. God I never felt so small in my life God his family probably thinks so little of me.Then my mom tried to apologize for it and I told her to forget it I mean I don't want to tlak to her. Then well she kept trying and finally said I don't know what to say and I told her how about nothing. I mean what am I suppose to tell Peter on Tuesday? God how am I even suppose to look at him? Man I'm not mad because I didn't get to go I'm mad because I know I disappointed Peter and my life being one big disappointment after another I don't like having people I care about go through it too. God I'm not a little girl so my mom needs to back off with the 'I'm sorry's and the 'I know it's not fair' Life's not fair duh I'm not a kid but don't expect me to just be like oh it's okay geeze just give me some freakin time. What the Hell am I going to do Tuesday? Peter I know I don't deserve it but could you write me an e-mail or call me later please?